Acceptance vs Denial
I often struggle with what is the “right action” I am supposed to take in any particular situation. When too much of my thinking mind wants to lean more towards less risk, stronger boundaries, protections, more worries: my actions are taken more from a fearful standpoint. I think, “I can’t possibly do that, it would be a disaster, everyone will laugh at me, or I will simply fail and be ruined”. Acting too much from my heart wants to let go and trust that everything will be okay: I can jump in quickly, forgive too easily, ignore my needs in favor of excitement or peace, and overlook the signs that can alert me to dangerous territory. “Oh, they must not have heard me, they didn’t mean anything by that, they have a lot going on, I can let this go, I can take care of this for them. I can do more to fix this.” And finally, if I just take the stance of the witness, detached and simply observing, I can get really wrapped up in complex interplay of causes and conditions, watching from a cold and impersonal height, and never act because the show is simply “extraordinary” entertainment. In fact, I have spent large periods stuck on one of these perspectives or [...]